"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path's straight."
Proverbs 3: 5-6

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Change of View

Life has been busy lately.  Well, as usual.  It seems like we are constantly on the go.  We never slow down.  In constant motion.  Everyone demanding of my time and energy.  This can be super stressful.  Not can be, it IS stressful.  At the end of the day though, when everyone else is asleep, I reflect on the day and I wouldn't have it any other way.  I love my super busy, super stressful life.  I just sometimes forget how to appreciate it.

Today I was reminded.

Caleigh woke up late this morning and I didn't realize it until it was too late for her to make it to school on time.  No big deal.  I planned to take the little girls to school then come back for her and check her in.  After dropping the girls off I had to go fill out paperwork at the surgery center for a procedure my grandmother was having.  Took a little longer than I thought, but still not too late for her to go to school.  Get home.  Hang out with her a while and realize how nice it is to be able to spend real time with her. Without little distractions.  Without asking her to help me out.  I have missed this and I know she has too.  I decide to let her stay home. Then she suggests we go to Moe's for lunch..just the two of us.. her treat!! So we had lunch and did a little shopping and I am so very glad I had this little bit of time alone with her today.

As much as this meant to me, I know it meant that much more to her.  Sadly, even though I am a stay at home mom, there are many days that I realize I didn't get to spend much quality time with my kids.  Sometimes I will look at one of them and think I haven't even seen you today.  I have read something similar to this in one of the blogs I like so I don't feel as bad seeing as how I'm not the only one who does this.  It does make me sad though.

Today, seeing how happy just a couple of hours alone made her (and me) has made me stop and reflect....differently.  How lucky am I to have so many people demanding my time and energy?!  How lucky am I to hear mommy uttered from their precious mouths 576,000 times a day?!  How lucky am I to be so loved that people fight for my attention ALL DAY LONG?!! I am the luckiest person on earth! How could all that LOVE be stressful???

Even though my life will still be busy, I plan to slow down enough to be able to enjoy and embrace the loving chaos.  I intend to no longer let these busy days make me feel stressed but instead I will stop and realize that I am so very BLESSED!!